Britney Spears Talks to the Voices in Her Head and She's Had an Abortion

Britney Spears signed a $14 million book deal to pen at least three (and up to five) autobiographical books based on her personal diaries. But when those diaries were discarded stolen recently, that sent the singer into a whirlwind and put her book deal in jeopardy.

Make no mistake: we don't believe - for a second - those diaries were stolen.

But we digress.

We learned last week the diaries that Britney is carazy (duh!). Someone who has read the "stolen" diaries told the Enquirer:

She still hears them, and they tell her to run away and hide. She knows they are not real, but she can't get them out of her head. She writes that once she was sitting on the couch in her Malibu home when she started answering questions the voices were asking. She would be sitting with her mother, her husband Kevin and other people -- talking to voices. They were shocked!"

Now, we learn Britney has had an abortion -- and it wasn't Justin's baby!

After Britney and Justin Timberlake broke up and she was living back in Louisiana, she had a fling with a local man -- and ended up pregnant. She desperately wanted to have a baby, but was advised it was bad for her career," said the insider. " Reluctantly, she had an abortion, and it has haunted her ever since. Justin was crushed when Britney told him she had an abortion. She said Justin was really hurt. He called her from time to time to give her emotional support, but they were never lovers again. Britney desperately wanted a husband and kids. It is the reason she married Kevin Federline after just meeting him. She was trying to catch up and to ease her guilt over the child she never had."

And we all see how that turned out: babies don't save relationships are make a man stay.